Dear Everyday Crush

“The very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone.” ― Jane Austen

I’m not sure if it was the first kiss but somewhere in-between the smoked blunts, I found myself falling. 

You wanted my permission to touch and I wondered if you were real. Consent, something so simple yet until that moment I hadn’t experienced it. You kissed my forehead goodbye and I knew that I wanted you near for good.

There was this thing about the way you paid attention to. The way you weren’t afraid to sit with me and cuddle for hours and hours and just exist in my space. 

You made me feel safe and seen for the first time in a long time. You made me feel like the world was my oyster and all I had to do was believe. You saw it in me, the spark and the power before I began to see it in myself.

You’ve loved and laughed and wiped away my tears. You’ve been my strength, my friend. My literal eyesight. 

I want you to remember that you are strong and I believe in you. 

I believe in your vision for building generational wealth for others and for our family. I believe in your talents and the wisdom that’s been gifted to you from God.

I believe in your heart and that you will always do the right thing and above all that I believe that everything will be okay no matter what. 

Always continue to have faith in God. To pray and to believe and trust in him. You were created for a reason and the Lord put you on this earth for a reason and as he ushers you into this new year. I want you to go back into that place of faith that we entered 2020 with. Because you have a purpose and that purpose is greater than everything that’s happening right now. It’s greater than our fears and doubts because God has a plan for our lives and nothing that occurs in the universe ever occurs by mistake. This is the time for you to stand strong and strategize and begin to execute for the future that you want for yourself and the world. 

You were given a vision and mission for life and that was not given to you by accident so I want you to enter into this new year of life with that same conviction and prayerful soul and believe in God’s hand and the plan that the universe has for you. 

You are loved unconditionally. I know at times we might fight and disagree but you are loved. You are worthy and you are the most amazing human being that I have ever had the pleasure of getting to know.

You have been a mirror into my own life that’s helped me to not only begin to see myself but you’ve supported me and are there for me in a way I never thought a partner could be.

I am here to build a future with you. To build a legacy with you and I love you even during the days when I’m mad and every other moment in between. 

I quite literally wanna grow old with you and see the world with you and build generations. 

I believe there are no accidents in this world and meeting you was definitely meant to be.

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.” ― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

You are not alone. I know you’re so used to fighting the world and all it’s demons alone but you are not alone anymore. I got you! 

You can rely on me for everything, no matter what it is, I am here for you. And we can get through it together. You are my warrior and my safety and nothing can change that. 

You can always share any thought or emotion with me and Remember that you are loved, appreciated, and respected.

Like Bonnie & Clyde

It’s me & u against the world always! 

“You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.” ― Julie de Lespinasse

I hope you never reach the point of hating me and I hope that you always find it in your heart to forgive me when I disappoint you or make you angry in any way.

I always promise to do my best to meet you halfway and be the woman that you deserve in your life. And I promise that even when it gets hard I’ll still stay by your side and I hope that you’ll stay by my side too. 

If we ever get into an especially bad fight i hope you’ll read this and remember this moment, this first year of our love story and that this will bring you peace and clarification for our future. 

“For the two of us, home isn’t a place. It is a person. And we are finally home.” ― Stephanie Perkins, Anna And The French Kiss

I never told you this but i really needed a friend. I needed someone to just sit and talk to me, long enough for me to escape my mind and all the pain that i was running from. 

I wont lie most days i still need that which is why im all bothersome about this talking thing lol 

Thank you for that. For being my friend and taking those moments to talk to me and just be real you know. 

I appreciate that and I appreciate you!

Also because you have to give credit where credit is due. I really really love your mom. Like it’s amazing that she could raise not one, but two high functioning woke human beings who can cook and are respectful to women and are overall just good human beings.

Queen Mother

I wanna say thank you to her for that, I wanna say thank you to you for being the man that you are. I wanna say that you are truly a rare diamond that’s enriched the very fabric of my life.

You have taught me realness, truthfulness, loving completely without any judgements.

I’m sending you blessings and a heart full of love and prayer and wishes that this new year will be full of abundance and never ending blessings. 

Love Mandy

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